los angeles, 8:30pm
Jesus said in Matthew 6:33 to “seek first the Kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.” Notice the key in this verse: seek first the Kingdom. In other words, don’t seek the blessing, seek the One who blesses. Don’t be consumed by things. Don’t chase after money, fame, fortune or a bigger “this or that.” Instead, chase after God! If you will seek Him first, then all of His blessings will be added unto you. Not a few things. Not a half a dozen things. God is a God of abundance, and He says “ALL things.” In other words, when you keep Him first place, you won’t be able to contain all the good things that He will bring across your path! He’ll fill you to overflowing. He’ll give you things that money can’t buy. You can work 24/7, but you can’t buy health. You can’t buy strength. You can’t buy a good night’s rest. Seek first the Kingdom, and God will reward you!
That word “seek” is a strong word. One definition says “to require as a vital necessity.” That means we should consider spending time with God as vital to living a victorious life. That means no matter how we feel when we wake up, no matter how tired we are on Sunday morning, we are going to get up and honor God as if our lives depend on it!
Today, make sure things in life are in the right order—seek first God’s Kingdom. Seek His way of doing things. Honor Him at the start of your day and make it a part of your routine. As you do, you’ll see His reward on your life, and you’ll see all of His blessings added unto you!
Tell me how you feel for I am lost.
When my parents get on to me about my past, I honestly start getting bitter. Why do they have to bring up my past, especially while knowing it’ll reopen old wounds I’ve desperately tried so hard to heal from? Thing is, they may not realize the tears I shed or the pain I hide from them just so they won’t call me weak-hearted, but they do it to make me better so I’m not unprepared for future problems. As much as I dislike their lectures and hurtful truths, it’s all to help me later on. Right now it honestly stings to hear it, but eventually I’ll see their clear reasoning and be grateful for it.
"Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God’s love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us." Romans 5:3-5
You may never read this, and even if you don’t, that’s okay cause I just wanted to get this out.
Ever since we started talking, I’ve become used to wanting to talk to you. Without realizing it, I’ve looked forward to hearing from you.
When you told me you weren’t sure of how you felt towards me, oddly enough I was still hopeful for a change of heart. Usually giving up was the option I’d take if a person isn’t sure whether they have feelings for me or not, but not with you. Your genuine heart and honest answers definitely caught a hold of me haha.
When we were on the phone the other day, there was something I wanted to tell you but I didn’t. Thing is, while being aware of the fact that I’m younger than you and still in high school, it was bound I hesitated, but if only you could see me now, cause I ended up still falling for you.
Relationships are fun and exciting, but that isn’t all I’m looking for. It’s commitment and something worth being the wait. Not just infatuation for 6 months and calling it over, but rather finding an understanding partner that’ll grow with you. You have no idea how much I wished to be older, because maybe then it’d be easier for you to see. Hoping you’ll see it’s not just a childish game I’m playing with relationships, unconsciously waiting became my answer.
Telling you “I understand how you feel because I went through that with my last boyfriend” sounded childish, and talking back to the past that left me in tears then was pointless, cause I’m rather happy liking you.
Maybe I need to understand where you’re coming from more, because bothering you especially with how I feel is never my intention.
There were many times I’ve wanted to tell you these feelings, but it felt selfish of me if I ever did, because you’re going through your own thoughts.
At the time when I began to distrust guys and give up, somehow God crossed our paths and I met you, and because of our meeting and conversations, I didn’t give up. So I’m hoping you won’t either.
In the chances you do and it doesn’t work out, that’s okay too. At least it was a shot you know?
Well…you may never read this, so these thoughts could go down the drain, but here’s the complete truth.